Psalm 30:5b
Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning.
This is a post I've been working on all week. I felt like the Lord was unfolding things for me to see...things for me to learn...things for my aching heart to grasp onto...
ever where I turn....
ever where I hear...
j o y....j-o-y...JOY....JOY...JOY
I see it on the beautiful canvas I had made to reflect the journeys to our babes...
I hear it in a story my husband shares of a friend who's baby also died young...April Joy...
I see it in a jewelry order for a sweet baby desperate for a life-saving heart surgery...Ivy Joy...
I hear it in every song....
I see it in several friends blog posts about counting it all joy...
I hear the word echo in my head all day long and all night long...
I see it in a sign I didn't even know I had...
It's every where..."I'm trying to see it Lord..I'm trying...but it's so hard! Where is the joy in this....I know you are showing me but I'm just having a hard time grasping it."
Joy: Intense and especially ecstatic or exultant happiness.....ummm, ya...so not ecstatic right now!!!
There is definitely no "I've got the joy, joy, joy, joy down in my heart, where? down in my heart..." going on over here!!
Then I realize something...more like the Lord was uncovering my eyes to show me...There is NOT joy in Zemirah's death...so stop trying to find joy in her death. But there IS joy 'down' in my heart because no matter what...I HAVE THE JOY OF THE LORD in my life!!!! There is joy in Zemirah's little life...joy that she is forever safe...joy that we will love her forever...joy that she IS and will forever be our daughter...joy that we WILL see her and hold her for eternity!
From a sweet friends blog: I have decided to joyfully accept whatever the Lord allows in my life.
I will accept His joy...His joy is my strength...I may still hurt but I trust Him...
My beautiful joyous melody...my precious Zemirah Joylena...we miss you...you are ours FOREVER...you will be in our hearts for eternity...our hearts will never be completely whole until we are all united together in heaven. We still weep for you our little love but have joy in knowing that we will see you soon.
4 comments:
oh Stacy...
this is so beautiful and so honest.
I haven't stopped praying since I heard.
Our hearts ache with you. Your joy, being perfected in HIM is obvious in your writing.
Stacy,
I am praying for you and your family. As you pour out your heart, it is a privilege to live out God's Word in bearing one another's burdens.
Last week as I was praying, I felt God saying He was pouring out His love over you-- like a wave overtaking the shore. God's love is that ocean. The wave is only a tiny fraction of His love for and joy over you.
"Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it: if a man would give all the substance of his house for love, it would utterly be contemned." - Song of Solomon 8:7
As you grieve, may God carry you through your sorrow. He does not want you to rush through the grief. He simply wants to carry you and wash over you with His love. His pace is slow, gentle, deliberate, tender. And He is producing glory in you and your family that others will not be able to explain.
You are loved, you are loved, you are loved, Stacy! Thank you for sharing your life with us blogger friends. Again, it is a privilege to walk with you. <3
Praying... continually... and sending love. Glad you are seeing the Lord walking with you through the valley. Sending you hugs. XO
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