You see...when I say that God will have to provide every penny, I mean...EVERY penny!! Our ONLY option is for the Lord to move mightily to bring our son home!!!!!!
We were driving home from my sister's tonight and I heard the Lord speaking to me so clearly. I was thinking about the fact that we could travel in August/September and I got so excited but then that nasty fear thing crept in and said you still have a lloonngg way to go...where is the money going to come from...it's soooo much money...there is no way it will happen.
Me: Lord, I'm so scared...
God: What are you afraid of?
Me: That we won't raise the money...that we will lose our baby boy
God: You aren't the one raising the money...I am!
Me: But I'm so afraid it won't come in time...I love this sweet boy sooo much...I can't imagine my life without him!
God: I have called this little one to be your son...I will provide!!!!
Then an amazing peace filled my heart...a soothing, gentle peace on my heart and mind. Then I kept hearing over and over in my thoughts..."I love him more than you ever have or ever will!"
I just love how God will allow you to wrestle but will be right there to pick you up when you are exhausted. Thank you, Father, for loving me more than I could ever imagine and for guiding my life! I pray for your perfect peace and guidance as we wait to bring our son home!!
There are 2 main reasons I posted this...1. I know I am weak and I need the Lord's constant reminder so this will serve as a reminder to me when I become scared...2. I know of several families in the same wrestling match and I pray this little post will speak to their hearts and that they will relent and receive the peace that the Lord is waiting to flood them with.